By Jennifer McPherson

We often don’t realize how much our perception of God shapes our entire experience of Him. If we believe He is distant, we will feel distant. If we believe He is angry or demanding, every moment will be filtered through fear or performance. But when we believe He is near—when we believe He is love—everything in our spiritual life begins to shift.
The truth is that everyone has theology. Even the person who claims not to believe in God still holds an internal idea of what God is or isn’t. The real question isn’t whether you have theology—the question is whether your theology is rooted in truth or in a veiled perception formed by shame, fear, or painful experience.
Many people assume their experiences shape what they believe about God, but the opposite is also true:
we interpret our experiences through what we already believe about Him.
Your life will always reveal your theology long before your words do.
This veil of distorted perception didn’t begin in the days of Moses or at the building of the Temple—it began in Eden. God declared humanity good, whole, and complete. Yet one lie from the serpent—“You are not enough; something is missing”—was enough to create the first fog over human sight. That lie planted shame. Shame birthed fear. Fear created the illusion of distance. And for the first time, humanity hid from the One who had always walked with them in perfect love.
Scripture calls this alienation “a condition of the mind.” We became foreign to God in our perception, not in His heart toward us. And from that moment onward, humanity began constructing systems, rituals, and rules to try to bridge a distance that God never created.
This is where the temple system was born.
When God said through Jeremiah that He never asked Israel for sacrifices or burnt offerings, it confronts some of our long-held assumptions. But it makes sense when we realize that a people who believed they needed to appease God would interpret His nearness as demand, His invitation as duty, His holiness as threat. God desired relationship, and we built a system. God longed to dwell with us, and we insisted on sending representatives in our place.
So, God met Israel at the level of their perception—not because it was His desire, but because it was the only place they could imagine Him.
The physical temple became a picture of humanity’s internal landscape under a veil. The outer courts—the place of washing, sacrifice, and constant activity—reflected our tendency to keep our relationship with God surface-level, swallowed up in performance, guilt, and sin-consciousness. Many people still live their entire Christian lives in these outer spaces, believing God is always slightly out of reach.
Deeper in, the Holy Place represented the soul—the realm of transformation, renewal, and learning. Here were symbols of revelation, communion, and worship. It was a place of spiritual growth, but also a place where only priests could enter. It subtly reinforced the idea that someone else must go deeper for us, that someone holier, more anointed, or more spiritual must access God on our behalf. Many believers today still live here—always in process, never arriving, always depending on leaders to carry them into a deeper experience of God.
And then there was the Holy of Holies—the place of pure, unfiltered presence. A space with no striving, no human activity, no light except the light of God Himself. This was the place that mirrored God’s original intention: face-to-face communion. But under the old covenant, this place was visited only once a year by only one man. That, too, reflected the veil—humanity believing God was too holy, too distant, too dangerous to be near them.
Yet Jesus came to destroy that illusion.
When the veil tore from top to bottom at His crucifixion, it wasn’t just fabric ripping—it was a mindset collapsing. The delusion of distance died. The era of systems ended. The idea that God needed to be appeased or mediated was shattered forever. Heaven made the first move, tearing down what humanity had built to protect itself from a God it misunderstood.
Jesus didn’t just remove the veil; He carried us directly into the place we were always meant to be. In Him, we became the dwelling place of God. We became the Holy of Holies. We became the temple where heaven meets earth—not through our effort, but through His union with us.
So the real question today is not, “How do I get closer to God?”
The real question is, “Where am I living in my awareness of Him?”
Some remain in the outer court—striving, trying to qualify, always feeling not enough.
Some remain in the Holy Place—always transforming, but never resting.
But the invitation of Christ is to live in the Holy of Holies, where the veil is gone and the distance has been destroyed.
This shift doesn’t happen through behavior. It happens when the heart turns.
“When the heart turns to the Lord, the veil is lifted.”
Not when we get better.
Not when we fix ourselves.
Not when we finally “arrive.”
Just when the heart turns.
Everything Jesus came to accomplish was aimed at removing the illusion of separation so we could see the Father clearly again—and in seeing Him, finally see ourselves.
It really is as simple and as profound as this:
When the veil is gone, we stop living toward God and begin living with God.
We stop striving our way inward and realize we are already home.

